The one where we prepare....

Mentally AND Physically.... Our baby boy is turning one. I can't believe this year has gone by so fast. When I was in elementary school, I couldn't wait to be in high school and drive. When I was in high school I couldn't wait to be in college and independent. And when I was in college I couldn't wait to find my husband and best friend and have a baby When I finally got one, I got both, and I wouldn't have it any other way and it feels like life sped up. My parents always said I grew up too fast and I laughed, but now I know the true meaning...  Last year this time my mind was focused on Halloween, football games and eating beef! (yes, you read that right!)

It wasn't a week after Halloween that our life changed, for the better and it is hard to believe our little one has 6 teeth, walking almost running, off formula, off bottles, picking up food, saying momma, smiling, laughing, etc... So this is the week that I reflect and prepare. I will reflect on the road that brought me here and that I have taken with Cooper. Have I done everything I could?? I remember the first few weeks, I was going to the doctor every few days. Apparently that is protocol when they are "premies". I say premies loosely because there wasn't much that was premie about Cooper other than he was almost 5 weeks early. He was "healthy as a horse". I am sounding like my dad now!!! So anyway, Cooper kept losing weight and I thought I was doing everything the nurses said and everything right. Well I found out I wasn't feeding him enough. I tell you what, I haven't felt anything worse before that or sense then.... It was like I was starving the baby. I came home balling and there wasn't anything Josh could say to make me feel better. It was even days later after Cooper was gaining weight that I was STILL crying... motherhood is crazy, beautiful, amazing and scary and who is to say I am doing a good job??  I am sure I will be in a similar situation again. I am sure there will be times where I am not a "good" mom or where Cooper and I disagree. I won't ever be perfect... but I have learned a lot already and will continue through our lives.

I am sure my parents are still learning. Heck, now they have to learn to be grandparents!! But that should be easy right, their main job is to SPOIL!! I know my grandparents did their job.... and I am sure both my parents and grandparents are reading this thinking...HA! you have know idea how fast they grow!

Cheers to life and growing old ALL TOGETHER (and the throw back pic of Cooper, more to come this week)

TOUCHDOWN!

LOVE